nikki (the blog)

well I can’t begin to describe how I feel right now, maybe I’m a little over tired but I have had quite a bit of awful, terrible things happen to me these past three months. I’ve experienced heartbreak, shock, forced responsibilities, rude awakenings, terror and many other things. I won’t lie and say that I haven’t doted on the past, wishing things were the way they were but I have come to find that the old saying is true: there’s always a storm before the sun. I put up with the rain to where I was standing in the middle of a flood, but now the sun is breaking through and drying it all up, and to be honest? i would not change a single thing about the present. here’s to the fresh feeling of a heart fluttering fast and something to look forward to. goodnight!

ps: here’s a lesson that took 24 years in the making: if your family and friends have an opinion about something in your life, and that opinion isnt exactly what you want to hear, maybe you should open your ears a little more and try to realize it is truly your best interest they hold for you. the heart wants what it wants, and I understand how that goes, but maybe its really your head that wants it so badly because if it was your heart that did, I don’t think anyone would disagree with you.

p.p.s. sometimes youre forced to walk the roughest path with no shoes while others get a ride, but it’s those journeys that make the end of the trip worth it, and while it’s difficult, you might wind up luckier than the ones who’ve had it easy.

bitch was in a kiddy pool, suddenly i don’t feel so bad for her. if this douchebag can’t swim in a kiddy pool, he isn’t husband material.

“the computer is red… no it’s blue… no it’s green. I’M FREAKING OUT! is this real?” - Myles, the computer genius.